Sunday, January 22, 2017
Indeed, along with Saint Paul (and every illumined being), I do not know what to pray for or even how to pray, what to hope for or how to hope, what to be aware of or how to be aware.
What is truthful awareness? Of what should I be aware? What is the God experience? What experience should I expect? I do not know — other than it usually being a peaceful feeling, a deeply restful and relaxed and protected and safe feeling, a warm feeling, or a feeling of blissful release and freedom.
Any more than this -- if I believe I know what God is, or what the God experience is or will become -- I believe amiss and I will have to continue to live without God or ‘healing’ in experience.
But when I entirely empty myself of even the slightest knowledge or hope about how God will be evident, and leave it entirely to God to be be God itself alone as me and all in my world, then I infallibly have God and the infinity of good and fulfillment that God is in real, practical and visible terms, and it will quickly be and remain evident.
From Satisfied With God Alone, page 273